I discovered/realized something about myself.
I am a complete idiot on the phone.
The good news is, I just saved 15% on my car insurance.
I have no idea why that joke cracks me up. It's not even that funny.
Okay as to being an idiot on the phone, I think it stems from my days as a Stage Manager. Honestly. I'm so used to calling people and having a purpose that I don't know how to just bs on the phone. I *can't stand* bs on the phone. Maybe that's why I *can't stand* when people call me for no reason, or think that they'll get to know me on the phone.
I was talking to a friend of mine tonight, who was helping me use this software that rips to .mp3 instead of Media Player, and it got to the point where I was just scared to troubleshoot this one part myself, so he called me to walk me through the process. Then, after we were done, I was ready to hang up. I mean, he called to walk me through the process of changing a media player file to an .mp3. He did it. We're done. But we talked for a while longer. That's when I started to feel like an idiot. I distinctly remember thinking, "do I sound as dumb as I feel?"
I really have no idea how to talk to people on the phone without purpose.
Another example. I called Besu to tell him to break a leg on his performance. He answered, I said "Break a leg" and he said, "that's it?"
Yeah, that was it. I just called to say that. I'd have left a message, but he picked up. Is that wrong? I mean, I didn't intend to have a conversation with him. I just wanted to say, "break a leg tonight", and I did. Then I hung up.
Is that wrong? I think I surprise people with that.
I also learned tonight that I can't take a compliment.
"You look nice today" I can take.
"I like the way you support your mom" I can't take.
Stuff like that... Maybe it's too personal for me, but it's hard to take. I don't know how to take nice stuff about my personality. Stick to telling me I'm pretty, let me roll my eyes at that. I'm a nice person? What? Uh, thanks. What do you want?
Don't people usually want something when they get all complimentary with personal stuff? That's been my experience anyways.
I am my own uncharted territory.