Thursday, August 03, 2006

insecure isolation

My priorities are all out of whack.

I think every artist goes through a period of time where they're insecure about their craft, themselves in their craft and their talent.

Mine has lasted over a month.

All I can think about is how much I suck. I suck at everything I want to do, and I'm not talented, and how I know nothing.

I really don't know anything about anything.

I hope I grow out of this, cause it sucks to be in suckworld so far.

And now I have to leave and suck in front of kids and grown ups. Seriously... no amount of prayer is going to get me through this. I hate myself.

I'm going to finish the job I started; dig a hole and stay underground.

I just have to get through this weekend first.

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